I love having a Mac. Except when the screen saver comes on and it’s all pictures of my Baby Panther. Then I feel so sad. Like there’s a late-afternoon catnip party going on with all the neighborhood felines and I am not invited.
The screen saver pictures reminds me of all the good times we had together …
When she and Man-Beast used to box with each other on her cat tower.
When she and I would do photo shoots for my blog.
When we would have late-afternoon catnip parties and then giggle over the silliest things.
Reminds me of how far away she is.
Reminds me that I won’t see this loveliness for two years.
I was able to FaceTime with Baby Panther the other night while my mom chased her around the house with her iPhone. So I took some screen shots of her. I had to have some proof of life because I had two dreams in one week about something bad happening to her. So I was un-nerved and had to see her next to today’s newspaper or something.
But she and I talked on the phone and she is well and good (and getting fed a lot more, now that she lives with her Grammy!)
Being away from my Baby Panther is definitely a hard sacrifice to make in order for Man-Beast and I to move to Taiwan for two years. I know she’s in good hands with my parents, niece and nephew.
In fact, when my mom let Baby Panther go outside the other day (I don’t like that because there are coyotes, big ass owls, bobcats and mountain lions in Arizona where they live), my niece and nephew said they were going to tell on my mom to me the next time they saw me.
So I have my little cat security team set up.
And I’m feeling better knowing she has lots of good people watching out for her.
I think the best way for me to cope with my sad feelings of missing my cat is to go volunteer at my local animal shelter. Then I’ll be reminded of how many good animals need their forever homes. And then when we come back in two years, maybe we can buy our farm, adopt all the homeless animals, and have our Dalmatian Plantation!
Day dreams keep the hope alive.